Happy New Year.
Traditionally, I have loved a New Year. Although I've never really loved seeing them in - generally that part has always been a tad disappointing. However the symbolism of beginnings has always appealed and, somehow, the Start of the Whole Year usually even more so. For many years I have taken a little bit of time to reflect on the year that was - enjoying in and cringing at the memories in equal measure - and have used that as a basis for making New Year's resolutions. Some years, I have written earnest letters to myself recapping my journey thus far and sketching out a rough plan for the one ahead. These little private treatises would document what I thought was important and who I thought I ought to be in the year to come.
I feel a little envious of that past Me, to be honest. Life was much simpler then (although I was wracked by the obvious and massive complexity of it at the time) and my connections and responsibilities were much lighter. Perhaps that is why I find it difficult to find the space and time to repeat the exercise now that my life is so very different. I have let the weight and significance of the coming New Year hover around me over the last week but despite being offered this perfect and timely opportunity to Set Goals and list Important Character Traits to Develop, I have not done a thing. Not a one. Oh, I've flirted with a few ideas. But, late at night, when I should be sleeping, I find any earnest resolution making quickly deteriorates into a sleepy fantasy world where we have come into generous amounts of money, all my friends and relatives live nearby, and we have unlimited free babysitting. Some wiring seems to have shorted in my head so that resolution has become wishlist and I can't seem to overcome it. There are worse fates, I suppose.
Before I give up completely, though, let me take the luxury of this little writing space to resolve to do at least three things this year:
Firstly, and most earnestly, I resolve to generously believe in myself and my skills.
Secondly, and most yearnfully, I resolve to make time for me.
Thirdly, and most unrealistically, I resolve to find a way to come into generous amounts of money, to move all my friends and family close to me, and to find unlimited free babysitting.
Happy New Year!
PS: These photos are a little snapshot of Christmas 2010. In order they are: 1. Tiny the King of the Christmas Dinner Table; 2. "opening" a present; 3. sledding for the first time; 4. on Lake Cordova, Boxing Day.